Grapefruit

The poem from the movie "Grapefruit".

love

love chokes me

love steals the breath from my lungs

love hurts me

love is a dark day with no sun

it spits and spreads

it’s a disease and I’m already dead

love is the shit on the bottom of my shoe

dragged across your perfect little room

love isn’t for me

it’s for you

fuck you

i say in this dark dimmed room

fuck you i scream from the top of my lungs

fuck you i scream to be heard by none

fuck you, fuck you, fuck you

i scream and i scream

till the echoes of my heart

crack through my chest

i gasp

a sliver of light

the palm of my hand

pressed against the curves of your breasts

the world spins just for you

from limes to lemons to oranges

i know now

i’m a grapefruit

i’m hanging on this limb desperate to live

but the weight of myself

is too much to give

i close my eyes

and risk it all

i let go of myself

and i fall